If Only I

  • 35'
  • Canada
  • 2000
A very direct, intimate and emotional video portrait of Colleen, a tormented middle-aged woman. She lives with the recovering schizophrenic Colin - a difficult relationship - and dreams about how her life could have been if, for instance, she hadn't listened to her dominant father, hadn't used heroin, hadn't left the father of her children. Between underlines, this video film also makes clear just how trivial, anti-septic, exploitative, banal and superficial Big Brother is. The maker, Donigan Cumming, has not meticulously glossed over himself to make everything look smooth, 'objective' and anonymous. If Only I is a distressing homage to the resilience of the individual. The internationally known fine artist Donigan Cumming is active in photography, sound, videos and installations.
Director
Donigan Cumming
Country of production
Canada
Production Year
2000
Festival Edition
IFFR 2001
Length
35'
Medium
Betacam SP PAL
Language
English
Producer
Donigan Cumming
Sales
Cinéma Libre, Video Data Bank (VDB)
Cinematography
Donigan Cumming
Editor
Donigan Cumming
Sound Design
Donigan Cumming
Music
Donigan Cumming